Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 17:16:19
In reply to My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 14:59:21
I don't get it, I'm not even that overwhelmed...
I just don't feel like doing anything but lie in bed or read posts.I remembered before I OD'd last time that I wasn't really that distressed...I'd just run out of options. I carefully planned it and I just executed it, but people freaked out...I don't want people to freak out.
I can't call my p-doc because it is the weekend. He won't even be there, plus they don't deal with urgent matters.
Tomorrow I will go to the walk-in clinic and just say that I haven't been able to concentrate. I'm not going to be dramatic and cry or anything. I don't think I can cry right now...I'm a zombie. If they don't give me a note, I'll have no other options but to buy the cheapest pills at the pharmacy and OD...just like last time. It's pretty crazy just how many pills one can get for less than $5. I'll have to do this near the morning, just in case I have to go to the hospital. I don't want my parents to find out. Hopefully I won't have to wait 4 hours to be seen at the clinic like last time. Too much time passed and they couldn't give me activated charcoal anymore. I don't want to stay overnight at the ER again.
Yes, that is what I will do. I'm going to study now. I feel much better now knowing my options. I can study now.
Deneb
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