Posted by woolav on August 5, 2005, at 19:18:43
I can soooo see why people just want to run away. Its not that easy when you are an adult though is it? I feel like there is this black cloud over me right now and that its like a monster that will eventually get me..
I know that sounds a little dramatic, but thats how i feel.
My car is having issues right now, and my husbands car is dead. So, right in the mist of his problem (trying to get a loan etc) now my car messes up!
Plus, I have freak parents who think that my daughter is their's and I am scared because I have decided to change the school that she goes to. (its something my daughter and I agree on, I think she will be happier and its what she wants)
but my parents (mom & step) want her to stay in a private school. (which i have been paying for and cant afford) Plus, my daughter was not happy there, she had no friends and the kids are spoiled rich brats..
Its really sad that I am having soo much anxiety about the school issue and how my parents will react! I am the parent of MY daughter, it just pisses me off to feel nervous about what they think. Its always been like that. GRRRRRRRRRRR
If I could I would just move far away and start over with my husband and daughter. I know one day I will have to get away from them, before I tell my mom i never want to see her again..
Sorry for the rant.
I am just totally anxious now and with this car thing on top of it all. I feel like I am going to lose it. I have been doing really good lately with my meds and all, but today, I came close to being in what would have been a deadly car accident and now I sort of wish it would have happend.
But, all the while feeling sorry for myself and afraid of everything, I think of things like, my best friend going through breast cancer and my father who is still going on day by day with prostate cancer and heart problems. There are things that are so important in life, yet we all forget sometimes. Life is important I guess. It would just be easier to not have the everyday BS to deal with.
Thanks for reading....
S
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