Posted by smokeymadison on August 3, 2005, at 18:03:21
i really didn't think that much of having an MRI of my brain (b/c of migraines) until i was in that machine and the technician injected me with this dye so they could see my brain more clearly. then i started to really think about what they are making sure i don't have--a tumor.
it didn't help that the technician's demeanor changed slightly after the MRI. i mean, he was very friendly and lighthearted one moment and then afterward he seemed a bit withdrawn and tight-lipped. i might have just made that up in my mind, though.
so the rest of today i have been panicky and thinking what the h*ll i would do if i had say, six months to live. i can't believe that i was so confident that there was no growth or tumor yesterday and now i am almost betting on it.
i think the most important thing i would do if i had at least nine months would be to have a child with my boyfriend. is that weird? i sort of think that it is the last thing that i have not done that i would really what to do. but i shouldn't be thinking this way. i will know in a few days.
SM
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