Posted by Jimmy Go on July 25, 2005, at 22:38:02 [reposted on July 26, 2005, at 23:49:26 | original URL]
I applied for Social Security disability today. I am so embarrased to have to do this but now I've hurt my family and may lose everything. I'm sure they will not approve my claim because mental illness is hard to prove and not taken very seriously. They probably think I'm a deadbeat. I feel worthless.I can't keep a job. Get fired after a few days or weeeks everytime. My family would be better off without me. My insurance will provide financial stability for a long time. I've been on Effexor XR for about 2 years. I'm up to 150 mg and may have to increase to 300 mg. I lost our first homeplace and it broke my children's hearts. There are many worse things than death I'm sure. My biological parents abandoned me and my brothers and sisters when I was four. I hope my children don't think I want to abandon them. They act like they hate me. I have been a failure. They don't need me anymore. Nothing makes sense anymore.
poster:Jimmy Go
thread:534026
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