Posted by Susan47 on June 26, 2005, at 18:41:08
In reply to Re: What is your job?, posted by Sonya on June 24, 2005, at 7:14:09
Hi Sonya,
Thank you for asking. I was in a line of policework for a lot of years. The stress of working mostly alone, and otherwise in such lonely proximity to people, drew me away. I had to save my sanity, the work was taking it all. I've been in major depression most of my life, only just got out of it about two years ago, and then in and out but lately mostly better. But in depression I didn't go anywhere, do anything constructive that is, because I didn't have any confidence at all, I knew I was going crackers. I could never ever talk about my job with anybody, the work was highly secret, and extremely triggering and stressful emotionally. Well, and during one of my assessments the officer asked me what I thought about my career and I have to admit I was sarcastic in replying, because a career is something we should be excited about, a career should be full of opportunity, places to go, new things to learn ... this was a job, dead end, nowhere to go, no matter how good the financial compensation .. which was really just middle of the road. Better than most jobs, you know, with great benefits, but I always felt it wasn't worth the personal price I was paying. But I had a kid to raise so I did it, I stuck with it until I got sick for real.
I can't tell the rest right now, I'm beat just getting this far ...
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