Posted by Susan47 on May 6, 2005, at 13:15:01
In reply to Re: *Coming Out* » Susan47, posted by Toph on May 5, 2005, at 22:21:30
Yes, I know exactly what you mean. That "stupid thing" issue is a big one for me, being hypomanic. My pdoc confirmed it, I finally have something solid to work on, solid ground I can set my feet onto and say, Yes, this was my problem, and now I can work to change it. Therps should know that for some of us it's a huge relief to know what our issues are, I don't know that I should've been seeing a T without a solid diagnosis of some sort beforehand. What makes me upset is that it takes so long, so much time, to come to a conclusion about a patient, I suppose being the hypo- not the hyper- type it's harder to see. I'm convinced that my therapist thought he could "fix" me up with behavioural therapy. That doesn't work, it wasn't working and I'm not sure he knew what to do with that. Sigh. Anyway, the whole thing was derailed for other reasons.
You know, Toph, the thing I have been finding out is that many of my friends and the people I'm attracted to have the same issues I do. Isn't that weird? So when I say something about myself, more often than not I get a lot of empathy, understanding, and hope, because the people I like are really nice people, even though they also are manic/depressive, have attention disorders, hypersensitivity ... yes. It's great.
If I could change my life at this point, you know what I'd ask for? I wouldn't ask to be different. I'd ask to know myself, really know who and how I am, from a very early age.
That's the real Gift in my life.
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