Posted by AdaGrace on May 6, 2005, at 8:29:07
In reply to Still struggling., posted by partlycloudy on May 6, 2005, at 7:21:03
I can't keep up with your med changes. Is this actually good? I don't know. I don't even know if what I am taking is working, so who am I to talk. I must say that I agree with gg...you said it very eloquently. You have a very expressive personality. I admire that greatly. I also admire your strive for peace and tranquility, no matter what the obstacles are. You are trying PC, that is what matters. The moment I start to try, I am sure I will feel better. However, at the moment (actually this moment has lasted for about 8 months now) but at the moment I choose not to try. I choose to wallow in my self doubt, self pity, self loathing, and self destruction. It's comfortable here in this skin. Comfortable, yet terribly damaging. This I know. Depression I know and understand. It seems like the cloud stays over your head. I know what you mean about that. All I can say is I hope you see some sun soon. I have faith that you will. You are a much stronger person that you think, and I really think you will get out of this slump soon. One thing I find that helps me lately, the only thing, is having something to look forward to. whether it be a night out, a new purchase, or a day off, it seems to help to have hope. Right now, I can't seem to get up and get going on anything. Even the things I like to do. Plants are dying because they haven't been planted or even watered. I've trimmed the entire garden. Actually butchered is more like it. But there those limbs lay in the yard. Not picked up. I'm thinking of just mowing over them. Mulch? Perhaps so. Hope the new Deer can handle the sturdy tree limbs. Maybe it would be good therapy.....chopping things up. Sorta like that therapy where you have a pillow and you beat the h*ll out of it or something with it. Oh PC! I feel better just writing this post to you. I really do. I hope my twisted sense of humor brings a tiny, small, wee, grin from your face. Now, get your *ss up and go to the gym. Do a few curls for me. I haven't the energy to lift my fat girth with the excess 10 pounds I've gained. Except to go to the snack table and have a "Little Debbie".
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