Posted by Larry Hoover on April 18, 2005, at 12:08:53
In reply to Susan47, posted by sunny10 on April 18, 2005, at 11:05:35
>If I haven't changed after 37 years, the probabiity that the same cycle will repeat itself over and over is so high as to be cataclismic. I don't want this life. And I keep trying over and over with so much exhausting effort to do therapy, read, practice copinkg skills- and nothing ever changes. I'm tired of trying any more. I give up.
You're tired. You need a hug. Maybe a snuggle. {{{{{{{{Sunny}}}}}}}}
I'm going to give you my objective view of your situation (*as if* I can really be objective)....
Something really crappy, scary, and violent happened in your closest personal relationship. You immediately recognized it for what it was, took steps to isolate yourself from further harm, and you're working diligently at coping with the changes it has made *in your life*.
You are living the Serenity Prayer.
It may have taken you 37 years to obtain that wisdom, but it is there, right now. And, it is your wisdom. You're not reciting advice you've heard from others. You're living in your own wisdom.
You're tired. You're frustrated. Those will pass. But the wisdom will not pass. It will continue to grow. Just like you, it will continue to grow.
Nurture yourself. Get grounded. Get ready. And give 'em sh*t.
Lar
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