Posted by partlycloudy on March 24, 2005, at 11:42:18
In reply to Re: I don't like me weepy., posted by sunny10 on March 24, 2005, at 10:57:21
Well, I'd been feeling better overall, on less medications, and not really being able to attribute the feeling better to any thing I've done on my part... but I'm not one to bury my emotions. My feelings are "normally" up front and center, and any attempt to bury them usually results in a banging migraine headache.
I think I'm not as better that I thought I was, and this is how I really am - depressed, weepy, anxious, and feeling pretty darn sorry for myself. And have a whopping load of guilt for feeling bad because I lack for nothing in my life - not love, not material things, not health.
It's this awful feeling that I can't let it all out - I'm at work, sitting at the front desk, the phone doesn't ever stop ringing, and I'm sniffing back all this snot (sorry) and mopping up my mascara before it makes racing stripes down my face. I really want to bawl my eyes out. That's the only thing I'm repressing right now.
I don't like this - been here, done this. Don't like it.
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