Posted by Shy_Girl on March 19, 2005, at 20:50:03
I'm hoping someone who has experience with my type of addiction can give me some pointers.
I really don't want to kill myself...even when I think I do, I think that somehow I don't think I will be 'dead' when I do. I don't really want to actually be dead, I just want to start over.
Anyways, I've gotten over some suicidal urges and now I'm sure I want to live, but yet I can't stop myself from reading pro-suicide sites and newsgroups. I'm getting support and detailed info for suicide, yet at the same time I'm actually much better right now. I even replied to someone's request for a suicide partner who lives in my province! Eeek...I'm afraid that someone will somehow convince me to kill myself now. How do I handle this???
poster:Shy_Girl
thread:473000
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