Posted by jerrympls on March 14, 2005, at 21:11:28
I've had a 9to5 desk job for the past 4 years - benefits included. I was doing ok my for year and 1/2 then my depression started taking a toll and my job attendance suffered. I got representation from our Disability Services to protect my job and since then things have been good and bad. Last summer I took a 3 month medical leave and returned to work in December. I've been doing much better as far as my depression goes - but I just feel burnt out. My management is fed up with me missing work due to my illness and although they can't legally fire me because of it - they have made it clear they want me out of the position I'm in now (tech support) and into another non-essential area (?) with the possibility of cutting my hours to 75% time.
I majored in music and have had no time or energy to put into this because of my day job. I want to do something else besides a 9to5 desk job -but I don't know where to start. The major thing getting in the way is my illness - somedays I can function and somedays I can't get out of bed. So another 9 to 5 is not gonna solve anything.
I'd love to start my own business - perhaps providing tech support from home and/or being a freelance musician - but how? Plus I need benefits (medical, etc).
To tell you the truth, I just don't want to work anymore. I'm sick of getting up every morning to go to a dead-end job. And after 4 years what do I have to show for it? I have no savings nothing. It's a miracle I've been able to even WORK with such a debilitating depression.
Maybe I should take some time of and go on welfare until I find something I'd really like to do? I just don't know. My parents are not supportive and my friends don't have any advice.
This job is sucking the life out of me - but I don't know where/what to do?
I need advice badly - I'd appreciate any that you guys can offer. I really need help.
Thanks in advance.....
Jerry
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