Posted by zander on March 9, 2005, at 14:03:47
In reply to Re: Why death is an option for me, posted by Shy_Girl on March 9, 2005, at 8:43:28
ShyGirl-
I am still not clear what 'rational discussion' your are open for. Yes, I agree that everyone has the right to do to their own body whatever he/she decides. However, I think that the ramifications and the consequences with respect to other people (i.e., your family, friends, and anyone whose life you touch) need to be seriously considered. When a person makes any decisions, and more specifically your point to take one's own life, it has an effect on others.
Not all thought or emotion is rational, and sometimes, even I have difficulty discerning where some of my thoughts come from (one of my pet descriptions of myself is that I have been around the block so many times that I have lost my training wheels!).
Can you articulate what it is that you really want or need from posting on this site - it is my hunch that you were not conciously asking for suicide methods or support for doing so given the nature of this site - there is no judgement or criticism here, just wanting to understand more clearly what is that you want or need for yourself at this point in your life. Are you really a 'Shy Girl' and have difficulty communicating with others what you need - do you feel that people don't really listen to you or take you seriously? I would like to hear more from you....I take what you say seriously, just am not sure what your point is! Be good to yourself (and that does not always mean what feels good!)Marie
> Hello
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> I'm open to rational discussion. I can see myself living a happy life in the future at times, but it is not likely to happen. I've already wasted too much of my famiy's money going to school. Even though it is possible for me to get A's when I'm feeling good, I will still never achieve my goals of doing research in a lab because I get too anxious. It is not a good thing to have shaky hands while pouring conc. sulfuric acid! :P I did really well last semester, but this semester started off on the wrong foot because of the anxiety...then came the stupid hosptial stay that further made me behind. I think the pdoc at the hospital totally over-reacted to my ASA overdose...I did careful research and made sure to take a non-lethal dose. Argh, I had to drop this semester because I couldn't study, because I was obsessed with researching methods and the effects of drugs....it's quite interesting. I must find out why one must check for pulmonary edema in an ASA overdose (unfortunately I haven't studied much of my physiology class). Anyways, without my family, I will probably be homeless. I don't have any life experience or friends. Perhaps tendancy towards suicide is selected for in evolution because it enables resources to be concentrated to where they are needed.
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> In the meantime, I will see if indeed some of my unhappiness is biological in nature by seeing if the 20mg Celexa will make me feel better. I think it is working somewhat. I also need to take care of my hamster because my family is afraid of him.
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> Thanks for reading :)
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poster:zander
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