Posted by Broken on March 7, 2005, at 8:46:10
Late last night, I got a phonecall from my mother. My niece, my only niece who I spoiled totally as my baby girl, before I had children of my own, is battling a bout of manic depression. My sister took a week off work to be with her and try to help, but I can't help wishing I could be there. She lives about 6 hours from my home. I gave my sis several Doctors to check with today, but my niece doesn't have insurance, so it's a roll of the dice as to if they will help her.
Even if they do, she needs someone there to watch over her while she starts any meds, since she hasn't ever done it before. Last night, she kept telling me, "It's just me, there's nothing wrong, it's just me." It reminds me how I felt when I first started treatment. I would convince myself of it, and quit seeing a Doctor, and throw the meds away until I finally broke, and decided I had no choice anymore. I dont want her to go through all that at the age of 21. I can't leave my family and go take care of her right now, ofcourse I would if things got really bad, but I dont want them to get to that point.
It's a b*tch to feel so helpless when I know what is happening to her, and I can't be there to take care of her. I guess I dont know what to do. I suppose I am just venting.
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