Posted by partlycloudy on January 17, 2005, at 9:33:24
The only time I feel motivated and energetic, I also have quite a short temper and I'm intolerant of circumstances that don't otherwise bother me. Is this the price I have to pay for being able to get anything accomplished? It's like I'm not only "up" but "up and over it". It just feels off balance, like I should be able to think and act with clarity, but I'm dragging along resentment and an out of proportion outrage. I can't tolerate anything but the "right" music - whatever that means. Blues annoy me and jazz keeps me from thinking clearly. Yesterday I cooked all afternoon, repotted some plants I've been trying to kill, and did a bunch of laundry. I was clumsy and moving ahead of myself, bumped myself several times and that angered me too. By the time nighttime came I was all abuzz and agitated. (No caffeine in my body, BTW.) It seems to last several days, then I slide back into my usual lethargic sea-cow speed. I don't like me like this - I'm a nicer, gentler person than this.
Oh, and I am definitely depressed.
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