Posted by smokeymadison on January 15, 2005, at 20:22:23
ok so i really messed up this month. normally i am very careful around the time i could get pregnant. i have been meaning to get back on birth control pills but haven't yet and i was not careful this month (this past week) b/c i was a week off in my thinking.
so there is a chance i got pregnant in the past week. it is too soon to go get a blood test so all i can do is obsess about whether or not i am. it just hit me today that i messed up the weeks. my boyfriend is demanding that i go and get a morning after pill tommorrow. i don't want to. i really don't. it might not be safe to get a morning after pill this late (possible birth defects?). but he is demanding it anyway and i am getting sick of his demanding.
i am totally mixed on whether i want to be pregnant or not. i just know that if i am, i don't want to mess anything up. we both agree that abortion is not an option, so i would be having the baby. i think my mom hopes i am. she is the only one i can talk to about this and the only one in my entire family who would be supportive. everyone else would say that i majorly messed up. if i am pregnant, i will be happy i am, but dreading everyone's reactions. at the same time, i am sick of worrying about what everyone else thinks about me.
i will not be taking my meds until i find out and if i am, i will not be on medication period. i expect a fight with the pdoc over that. there is just too much going through my head right now...
SM
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