Posted by smokeymadison on January 5, 2005, at 12:55:02
so i am out now. i spent six days on the psych ward. i am feeling rather empty and far away from everything. it is probably the new mood stabilizer. i should just take a klonopin and take a nap, i think. i have had a lot going through my mind lately.
i figured out that all my agitation was probably caused by my trying to avoid feelings of emptiness. that i now feel empty instaed of agitated is probably a good sign, i think. the agitation had lead to thoughts of suicide. i am stuck at my stepmother's parents house until this ice storm lets up. it will probably be Monday before i get home. i don't know these people very well and this is hard. they picked me up from the hospital and brought me to their house. i just want to be back in familiar territory and i can't be right now. i have to wait unitl my mom or my dad can take me home b/c my boyfriend and mine;s car is not starting right now. if it were, he chould come and get me after the ice storm. this sucks!
SM
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