Posted by deirdrehbrt on December 16, 2004, at 22:26:44
I learned something about myself today, it is truly major in my life. Here it is, with a little history.
Since I was about 4, I knew I was a girl. My parents insisted I was a boy. Their method of enforcing this *truth* was to beat and / or humiliate me when they saw me dressing or acting inappropriately.
I never, until today... in my 40's realized that my fear of being myself, of dressing or acting how I want to is actually a fear of my parents. Even with multiple personality disorder, so many of us inside are scared of our parents. They wouldn't let us be us. Instead, they hurt us and scared us. Well, now, we want to be us, and Dee has to learn how to let us be us. It's hard for her, but she can do it. The parents and brothers can't hurt us like they used to. We don't need to be as scared of them as we were.
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