Posted by smokeymadison on December 8, 2004, at 0:25:52
i just got an invitation to a bridal luncheon with one of my best friends from high school. i am the only one of our close group of friends not asked to be a bridesmaid. ouch! OUCH!!!
i am the "crazy" one in our circle of friends, the one with all the emotional and mental problems. the friend who is the bride has kept her distance ever since my first suicide attempt four years ago.
this just hurts so bad. we were best friends in middle school and most of high school until i went "crazy" i am still realy good friends with a couple of the bridesmaids and it hurts that they sort of kept this fact from me for months. (that they were all asked to be bridesmaids.)
i realize that my borderline stuff is really coming out here--rejection is something i don't handle very well at all. i don't know how i am going to make it through the luncheon without bawling (it is a month away.) i just took 2 mg of Klonopin to calm down and am hoping i will just go to sleep and wake up feeling better, but i seriously doubt it...
SM
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