Posted by Shortelise on December 7, 2004, at 14:06:46
In reply to Blame it on Christmas, posted by Toph on December 6, 2004, at 22:07:18
I hate Christmas. I would just as soon let it pass without a nod, even, but my husband loves it, he wants decorations, a tree, friends and family, etc. So we do it most of the time, we celebrate, and there is a part of me that feels a certain warmth around it, the pretty lights, the smells, the foods.
The seasons come and go, the seasons of the year, the seasons of our lives. I like to think that in my life, one season does lead to another, through each there is change, growth, and evolution of a sort.
So far, it seems to be true. There have been bad season, tempestuous, painful times. And there have been others that have brought calm, warm, happy times.
What I do have to believe is that the seasons change. They always have, they always will, and I trust that when things are bad they will get better, with a little hep from me.
Still, we're going home to my parents' this year, a long trip, and one that frightens me. It has been a few years and a couple hundred hours of therapy since I was last there, and I hope, how I hope, I have changed enough that it won't hurt so much this time.
But back to you - Toph, I am really sorry. I can't say anything that will magically change how you feel about things, and I wish I could. A practical idea could be to spend some time doing volunteer work with kids or in an old people's home - something that might make you feel good about yourself. I find that making myself feel good about me is a good way to counteract some of the sadness.
Hugs
ShortE
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