Posted by 64bowtie on December 5, 2004, at 3:38:29
In reply to Re: CPS as a topic, posted by Toph on December 4, 2004, at 14:55:26
> Bowtie,
> To not let your childhood define yourself is a great accomplishment and should be a source of great personal satisfaction. I hope this is the case.
> -Toph<<< Please bear with me. I do see that the whole of your response was intended for multitask. May I have a crack at this last point?
How my childhood has defined my choices in adulthood has been a torturous struggle. Something cosmic emerged from my studies, that there is a glimmer of vanity in my reaction to my childhood picture I see in my head.
May seem counterintuitive, but I was saying, sometimes out loud, "My life should be better than it is!" Eventually I asked, "Who says my life should be better than it is?" Yep. Who says...? My vanity says I shouldn't have a messy life!
My life is only a life that belongs to me. There is no guarantee it will be this or that kinda life. That's just my snotty puffed-up ego saying I'm not happy and its somebody else's fault! Wrong!
I don't make any statement about anybody but myself. If any of what I just said seems to resonate, then like myself, I hope you can come to pieceful freedom and happiness, eventually.
Acceptance was my mental-wrench I used on myself to straighten out my reasoning on this issue, while changing that picture in my head.
Rod
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