Posted by saw on October 11, 2004, at 3:51:21
My hypervigilence has extended to my sleep aswell. I can't sleep for more than a half hour without waking up / partially waking up with a huge fright. I don't even know if it is dream related. My whole body jerks and my heart just pounds.
I had horrible dreams last night of being tied up with chains on a beach and getting raped. It was graphic and vivid and the person raping me was bigger than my but my younger brother. (I don't have a younger brother). This might sound odd, but I can remember thinking how "small" he was. He did not cause me pain in the rape though I can remember I felt terrified. He continued to torment me and physically abuse me throughout the rest of the dream which took a completely different turn. It is not the first time that I have dreamt of being assaulted (always a face I have never seen before). I know I tried to wake up and had many heart stopping frights, but somehow was powerless to. Not the most restful sleep. At one point I woke up hitting my husband. I remember dreaming about hitting my son. Lucky for him though, he didn't even wake up.
These dreams are just horrible. I can't even begin to try and understand them.
I'm sick of the hypervigilence too. Now that it is prevalent in my sleep, I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack soon. My chest physically pains from the fright.
Made me very tired and grumpy today.
Sabrina
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