Posted by zeugma on October 7, 2004, at 19:25:27
In reply to I lost him, posted by Dinah on October 7, 2004, at 16:37:14
> I was growing increasingly scared because he still seemed disoriented, and was looking for me where I wasn't even though I let him know where I was. Plus he has that look that dogs get when they're only half here in this world and half in the next.
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> So even though my vet's out today, I took him to the clinic. A vet that I'm going to have immense respect and gratitude for from now on saw him, and said that it sounded as if a cyst had burst inside, causing him the acute pain, and poisons had flooded his body, causing him disorientation. It had nothing to do with the medications I had given him. He said that he had a chance, so we went ahead and chose surgery.
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> He did indeed have cysts, which probably caused last night's problem. But they were on a huge inoperable tumor. There was nothing they could do for him, so we put him to sleep without waking him up.
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> I'm so grateful to the vet for giving me time to say my last goodbye, telling Harry that he was every bit as wonderful as he always thought he was. I'm not sure how aware of me he was at that point. I'm even more grateful that his last clear memory from last night was probably that he was in pain but that (as usual) when I picked him up and he snuggled on my lap and I put my hand on his little body, that he felt comfort and peace and was able to stop shaking and fall asleep.
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> But my arms feel so empty and my lap so cold.i'm so sorry dinah, there are no words to describe what i want to say... i can't type anymore, but i hope your memories of him can console you...
-z
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