Posted by saw on October 5, 2004, at 3:45:28
Feel blah today. Feel tired, never sleep well anymore. Stomach and thighs getting bigger by the millisecond. Lots of backlog at work. Took work home and ended up doing 2% of it and crying because I had to take it home in the first place. Drank too much as usual and husband went to bed alone as usual. Don't feel that I am worth much at the moment. Can't focus on my work, ate too much bread this morning, no wonder weight is as it is. No willpower. Feel angry at myself, angry at God, angry because I have to take medicaton, angry at life, angry because I'm angry and it's such a useless, unproductive emotion. And none of this is good for me and that doesn't matter because I can't help it anyway or I don't care anyway or something like that and when I write in riddles like this and use these enormously long, incorrectly phrased sentences then I know I am rambling or as my H would say "talking too much".
All I can think about is crawling into a dark comfortable place with my bed and pillow and eating lots of junk food.
OK, now I'm being boring.
Another huge sighhh!
Sabrina
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