Posted by octopusprime on September 26, 2004, at 12:17:37
do you find that you can track your moods by cigarette consumption?
i have been smoking more, much more. i used to be very regimented ... i would buy a pack exactly once every two days. i would be alloted 10 cigarettes a day. if i smoked 12 on the first day, i could only smoke 8 on the second. this worked for a while.
now i have thrown the rules out the window. i smoke what i want, when i want. this is getting expensive but i feel so restless and helpless i don't know what to do except have a smoke. it grounds me for 5 minutes. and i like smoking.
i know it's not depression that i'm tracking, it's on the other end. the restless of mania that causes me to do this ...
anybody else?
ps - i will consider entreaties to quit only from people that can beat me on the 10 km bike ride and the 400 stairs i climbed yesterday :p
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