Posted by just plain jane on September 25, 2004, at 20:46:37
In reply to s*icide thoughts when not depressed, posted by deirdrehbrt on September 25, 2004, at 20:10:47
Actually, yes. I think about it.
I think about all the friends I've had who did it.
I think about how screwed up it was, every time.
How broken up I was, their families and friends were.
What a crappy thing it is to miss them so and, even worse, to feel like joining them because I feel so crappy myself and would I get to see them again?
I think about how I could do it and make it look accidental. Not that I want to or would, just how it could be done.
I think about the fact that my son is grown, I have no one else who cares for me in the pure way he does, the way our animals do. The fresh, innocent, simple love.
I think about all the sad, depressed, "hopeless", miserable people who are thinking about it, considering it, doing it, and how they, like I, are probably feeling like no one cares much about them and they do not know that I care, without even knowing they exist, I care.
Because no one should ever have to feel so bad.
It breaks my heart.
Yes, I think about it.
just plain jane
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