Posted by woolav on August 23, 2004, at 10:29:23
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 22, 2004, at 22:54:33
Hi, I just wanted to say I have felt the same way as you for many years. It wasnt until I accepted the fact that I have a chemical imbalance in my brain which causes me to be the way I am. (and that is not my/your fault)
I used to look around at people and think, "why cant i be normal like them?" and it would just throw me into major depression, where i would cry everyday because *I* wasnt normal. I had gotten so down one night, that I called the mental health # on my insurance card and told them that i was thinking of suicide. I was promptly sent to a therapist, then a pdoc. It has been years and many drugs later and I am still trying to find the right meds for me, but I dont blame myself anymore for how i am. And that has helped me a great deal. I still get depressed here and there, but I know I have to fight this *disease* and I feel like God will give me the strenth to do it. And I know you can get through this too.
We are who we are and have to love ourselves. I know its sooo hard to do that. But without it, we have nothing...
Take Care,
Sandy
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