Posted by Camille Dumont on August 15, 2004, at 11:15:35
In reply to Has anyone ever had (or given) a Rorschach test?, posted by JenStar on August 9, 2004, at 14:21:10
I had a MMPI II and a Rorarch (sp) done at the same time for a psy evaluation and boy was it usefull. My psychiatrist asked for that because she wanted to know if what I was experiencing were due to a pd or if my symptoms were trully psychotic episodes. In then end it confirmed that my hallucinations were not psychotic but rather the product of having a schizoid personality and that antipsychotics were definately not needed.
Although I would say that the MMPI seemed more "insightfull" in my motivations, thought patterns and needs and wants ... still I couldn't get over the fact of how the inkblot test described me accurately ... its freaky to think that me seeing a cat instead of say a horse in some blot could be so meaningfull.
In the end that whole process cost me an arm and a leg (C$700) and I'm not sure if my insurance will pay it but you know what, it has been more helpfull than all of the freaking therapy I had gone through beforehand.
I think its because (was done by a different psychologist from my usual therapy) the results told me what perhaps my pdoc didn't want to tell me for fear of hurting my feelings and given the type of personality I have ... and test results were easier to accept for me than say the opinion of my pdoc.
Now that I finally knew what the heck were those strange needs and wants that I didn't really understand and have an idea of where they came from, it gave me a freedom of sorts ... like a third person insight on how I thought and acted and it helped me gain some perspective. If you understand why you feel depressed, its 500 times more easy to reason with yourself when the suicidal thoughts creep up and to find more acceptable alternatives because you know what unfullfilled needs cause the bad thoughts. Its like finally knowing the right question ... when you do, its like having half of the problem solved.
It has been a defining momment as I have not gone back to therapy since then (and not felt the need to either) and I've gone off one of my ADs and am planning on stopping the second one once I'm over the w/d of the first one.
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