Posted by Simus on August 12, 2004, at 1:46:10
In reply to RE::: Hey everyone, posted by Mrs. C on August 10, 2004, at 22:40:23
> It seems that my OCD is back. I spent every spare minute today worrying about my gland in my neck. Feeling it and obsessing over it. Feeling hopeless that something is terribly wrong with me but not even sure if the gland is even swollen. It is very small and I am probably making it worse by probing it constantly. I honestly cannot control the urge to check it every spare minute. Have any of you had experiences like this.
Not that experience exactly, but other things like checking to make sure the doors are locked. You might think that isn't so bad, but on a bad day, by my 17th trip around the house to check doors that "I think I locked... but maybe not..." it is pretty clear this isn't normal behavior. When I fill out a form, any form, I check and double check and triple check to make sure all the fields are filled out properly, and then I am not sure I was really paying attention when I checked the first six times so I recheck... And I have mental checklists for everything. It can be extremely frustrating and exhausting to do even the simplest task on a "bad day". So I know how you feel. But for some reason the OCD seems to come and go, and I have been doing somewhat better lately.
> Sorry to bother you all with this and you must think I am totally nuts. I feel totally nuts believe me. I have noone else to share this with and it really helps to get it out.
Hey, no one thinks you are nuts. Share away. Most people wouldn't understand. But I dare say with all your Yo-Yo friends here, someone is likely to understand on some level anything you are going through.
> I hope that you guys still want me to be a yo yo.
Sorry, but you have to stay. You signed a lifetime contact and we cannot let you out. By the way, I doublechecked and triplechecked to make sure you signed your contract... or did I??? LOL
> I am really scared right now that I am always going to think I have some disease and I will never just be happy.
You have had better times before, and they will get better again. Don't give up hope on getting past this once and for all. Nothing is forever (well, except for your Yo membership).
God bless,
Simus
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