Posted by octopusprime on August 6, 2004, at 10:56:58
In reply to Re: journal excerpt **possible trigger** » partlycloudy, posted by ghost on August 6, 2004, at 8:31:20
i get depressed when i start over too ... at a new job, in a new apartment, moving to a new place ...
you so poignantly identified guilt as a reason ... the i should be happys, the i got what i wants so why do i still feel this ways, etc.
there's also grief ... sadness over everything that has been lost ... wishing some people could be here to share these moments with you ... reliving conversations that could have gone differently
and uncertainty, lack of self-confidence ... the did i make the right choices ... the what if it doesn't work outs ... the feeling that you're standing on the edge of a proverbial cliff getting ready to jump ...
and lack of sleep makes everything seem so much more frantic ...
((ghost)) i think this too shall pass, if you hang in there. if you can remember times when you have felt better, if you can draw a word picture of them in your journal, if you can do this without feeling meloncholy, but instead as something to look forward to when this storm too shall pass ...
and maybe just one xanax, one to help you sleep, one to give you the rest you so desperately need ...
i feel for you because i have been there and i'm sorry you feel this way
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