Posted by tootercat on July 30, 2004, at 17:21:01
I seem to be on self destruct at work.....it's like I'm trying to lose my job. I can't really afford to but I am spiraling. I think since I know that I am eventually going to move in with my significant other and won't have to work. I have a subconscious attitude that isn't exactly beneficial to my situation. I have been here so long and have, I think, reached saturation. There is a part of me that after having been of the mindset that I would have to be here another 20 years (oh God) and now seeing a light at the end of the tunnel that is closer (not to mention that this place is a "boys club")I couldn't care less about "being good". Talk about 2 year old behavior....geez....Just spouting...glad there's a place to do so....Part of me is afraid of being fired and part of me would love to say "bite me" (hope that phrase doesn't offend the powers that be here or I'll be in another doghouse)
Ok now I'm just babbling, but hey isn't this psychobabble.....Tooter
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