Posted by karen_kay on July 22, 2004, at 12:35:06
In reply to mood transitions, posted by Slinky on July 21, 2004, at 11:18:21
miss slinky, when i feel this way, i tell myself i'm dying (someone told me yesterday it's a symptom of the 'crazies', thinking you're dying). usually i can go to the doctor and the doctor can say 'no, no you're not.' this time i can't. that has me even more terrified. i've convinced myself i have some type of cancer (probably ovarian since i'll never have children and my ovaries hate me and life's just shit sometimes anyway isn't it? and i just want children sometimes more than anything even though other times i really can't stand them.. now, why is that? because sometime's life's just shitty like that, remember? if you didn't remember that dear, your memory is worse than mine..).
so, about these mood changes. it's the weather. it's too hot to always dry my hair. and if i still do dry my hair, then i sweat. and a lady isn't supposed to sweat, is she? and, by the time i finish my makeup, half of it has melted off anyway. so, i end up looking like miss honey , with make up smeared across my face. or, i just can't find that perfect pair of shoes to match my outfit. or, if i find that perfect pair of shoes, then my outfit is either too loose or too tight. (and yes emmy, there is a such thing as clothing being too tight).
but, in a few days, i'll get dressed and everything will fit perfectly again (even if it doesn't really). and my makeup will look perfect again (even if it doesn't really). and the weather will change (even if it really hasn't changed temperature) and the breeze will come back through, making everything feel glorious once more. actually, it'll feel even better.
poster:karen_kay
thread:368593
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