Posted by B2chica on July 18, 2004, at 13:06:29
In reply to Sandy and Ghost, posted by Indie on July 16, 2004, at 21:43:13
>>The sick part of it is that I am alone by choice.
Honey, you are sooooooo not alone in this. i am Terrible at doing this. I constantly push people who care away from me. Sometimes i can't stand being around anyone but then i just ruminate on being depressed and alone and the blame game starts to kick in.
Please know that isolation is Part of Depression. this is not you choosing to do this to yourself. it's Sooooo difficult to not get caught up in this. first you isolate, then you blame self for isolation, then you ruminate on all the "hurt you've cause yourself..." this is all the depression talking. It's easy for me to say right now cuz i'm not completely down that path. but when you are there you can't even sometimes see that as anything near the truth. and even though you don't really know me Please TRUST me on this. this is depression NOT you. DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF for anything.!!! got it?!i am sorry you are feeling this down. please remember we're here for you. That's one thing i do like about babble. even though when i isolate, i can come here cuz the interaction is all in my control. i can choose Not to read, or Not to post and i can shut down the computer anytime i want or need to. Just remember that we ARE here if you need us, we're just a couple clicks away! Please take care of yourself.
hugs.
((((((((((Indie))))))))))B2c.
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