Posted by attoday on July 17, 2004, at 17:36:05
In reply to Re: new- needing support-depression- lexapro?, posted by ghost on July 17, 2004, at 16:56:08
thanks for your post ghost..
I mentioned last week that I was scared he will leave me because of my depression. He told me he loves me very much and he is glad I am here. I am glad you told me because that is a lot to hold in.
I've had difficulty with the intimacy since the beginning of our relationship. I'm just nervous about having sex... sometimes I feel like i'm hurting myself by having sex. I suppose this is the backlash from the times that I had sex when i wanted love (the codenpendent side of me).
There just seems to be so many things that are screwy with me.
Moving has been great, but it's a huge change. Even though I like living here, I find myself missing what I knew when I was in a familiar place. This place will become familiar soon..I can see that I just want to let go and someone else take care of me.. maybe then everything will be okay. that's how I feel but I know that isn't true. But as I wrote in another post, I can see that wanting someone to save me being a pattern.
Self care is new to me. No more Peter Pan's.. or ones I thought would be a Peter Pan.
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