Posted by Ilene on July 14, 2004, at 21:42:14
In reply to Dear Diary July 8, part 1, posted by Ilene on July 8, 2004, at 20:17:44
I can't believe it's been nearly a week since I posted. Maybe that's because I am more and more depressed. I feel intense brain and body fog--I don't know how to describe it--all I want to do is stay in bed. I have a hard time remembering things or concentrating. I'm still managing to unpack and pay some bills. It's not quite as hard as it usually is.
It was sunny today. It still is sunny. I walked down to the shopping street with my daughter to buy groceries for dinner. A couple of days ago I discovered the place to buy live frogs. Today I discovered the place to buy live turtles. Lots of live fish. Many things I can't identify.
I've been gaining weight. I found the bathroom scale, but I'm afraid to use it. My fingers have gotten bigger. I finally got one of my rings off. It left a big indentation. I used to have slim fingers, but that's all gone. My finger joints have been bothering me, too. I think I have arthritis.
Everything seems permanent now. I used to think that my ills would cure themselves, but now everything settles in for the long haul.
I wonder if this is the end for my current med regimen. It was pretty short.
poster:Ilene
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