Posted by Racer on July 11, 2004, at 14:02:42
In reply to Re: For cakins, posted by cakins on July 11, 2004, at 7:39:12
I'm glad you found your way here, and I hate to make it sound as if I'm not listening to you by asking questions about what you're saying -- but I'm gonna ask some questions, anyway. It's not that I'm not listening to you, by the way, it's just that I know from my own experience that I don't always see the full range of possibilities -- no matter how limited those possibilities are at the time -- when I'm in the deepest depths of depression. And at those times, I'll give a million versions of the same reasons for why I'm right and everyone else is wrong about what those options might be. So, don't take it as me not listening to you -- please don't, I really am trying to understand what you're telling us, and I have some other questions that I think would make it easier for me to understand what you're saying.
Anyway, here are my questions:
You say you were picked up a year ago and taken to a clinic, where they wouldn't let you go? Can you tell me a little about that situation? Just general -- who picked you up? Why did they want to keep you -- were you suicidal, threatening, just too apathetic to answer questions? Just a general sort of overview of that situation.
Did you receive any treatment back then? Did it help at all?
Do you have any health insurance? Access to any medical care? Access to any non-profits in your area? Church? (I'm *not* advocating any organized religion by asking that. Some churches have programs that can help match people with the help they need -- even if you're not a member of the church. During one of my worst periods, a Catholic priest found me a medication program and bullied them into accepting me. I'm *not* Catholic, and I'm *not* a big fan of organized religion. But that priest literally saved my life.) Social support network -- family, friends, anyone?
If I seem to be pushing and prodding you, it's because the depths of your distress are resonating so strongly in me. I've experienced the absolute nightmare of being in desperate need of help with no way to get it. (Hell, I'd be there now myself, if some of the people on this board hadn't been going out of their way to support me through this period.) I'm wishing very, very hard that there was some way to help you, and trying to learn enough about your specific situation to see if there is anything practical that I can suggest.
Sorry, cakins, I'm just not very good at the warm fuzzies. I wish I could just say something like, "gee, I'm sorry you feel so bad" and be done with it. I am sorry you feel so bad, but I also want to know if there's something that can be done to help you feel better. I hope you can feel the caring that prompts my questions, rather than feeling pressured by them.
Best, best wishes to you.
poster:Racer
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