Posted by fallsfall on July 1, 2004, at 8:01:43
In reply to The fish in the bowl, posted by Somatization on June 29, 2004, at 21:37:59
Somatization,
Did you write this? It so perfectly expresses my feeling of isolation - isolation from being understood.
I spent much of yesterday, and I'm planning on spending some time today working with your words. I have reformatted them so that the text is in the shape of a fishbowl. I will print it in blue writing on slightly mottled off white paper (unless I can find some off white paper that is just barely tinged with gold). I got an unfinished pine shadowbox which I will (hopefully) rag black tempura paint on (the outside world is dark and murky and dull, the depth of the shadowbox shows my distance from the world). I'll try to get the paper laminated with something with just a little gloss (representing being trapped, unable to breathe).
Will I have the courage to show this to my therapist today? I don't know. My current (severe) crisis is a result of my rage at feeling that he wasn't understanding me, while he professed with conviction that he was. Maybe I can show it to him, but I don't know if I can talk about it today.
I hope that it is OK with you for me to do this project with your words. It will hang in my bedroom - reminding me that someplace in this world I *am* understood. If this isn't OK, please let me know. I'll give you credit on the back.
Thank you, Somatization, for your help in so clearly expressing my world.
P.S. Babblers do fairly well at understanding - and I appreciate that so much. And when I tell a Babbler that they *aren't* understanding me, you guys don't tell me that I'm wrong - that you *do* understand. This means so much to me. Thank you, Babble.
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