Posted by Dinah on June 29, 2004, at 18:36:31
In reply to Re: I get angry with myself sometimes » Dinah, posted by justyourlaugh on June 29, 2004, at 17:44:57
I honestly am very good at speaking up for myself in many situations. But not with a certain subset of people that I care about, and this vet falls into that subset. He's been my vet forever and a day, has really worked with me to help my pets when others would have given up, and I honestly like him. I always say I wish *I* had a doctor just like him. In the face of his casual demeanor, I was terrified that I'd make him angry if I made a big deal about it. And I don't want him to be angry with me. :( Faced with the loss of money or the possibility of making him mad, I'd rather go with the certain loss of money. But enough of me thinks this whole thing is wrong that I'm angry with myself over it. Sigh.
Definitely a pattern with me, and I need to work on it. But not with my beloved vet. I don't want him to be angry with me. :(
I suppose I could reframe it as thinking the working relationship is more valuable than the damages suffered. But I'd be lying to myself. There's just a scared little girl inside who is terrified of having him mad at me.
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