Posted by lucy stone on June 18, 2004, at 12:40:21
In reply to failure, posted by ghost on June 18, 2004, at 12:05:31
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> all her achievements make my stupid daily goals of moving crap into designated piles seem... well... stupid. i have to make short lists of stupid goals for myself so i don't freak out and off myself every day, while she's getting tracked by the FBI and handed a post-doc.
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> some days i wish i wasn't sick. i want more than anything today to be a normal girl.
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> some days i wish i wasn't an insomniac so i could stay in bed. today i feel like such a failure.
You are not a failure, you are just in a hard time in your life right now. I know quite a bit about academic science, since I have been in the field for a long time and am married to an academic. Your sentance about is key, this girl is being handed a PhD. A two year PhD is ridiculous, the only person I know who did anything like that got a PhD in 3 years because she was sleeping with her advisor. This girl obviously had skills the FBI wanted, and they put pressure on her institution to get her out and down to Quantico. That says nothing about your or your abilities. You were trying to go to grad school while you were dealing with all the turmoil in your head it's no wonder you had trouble in your classes. Your life is difficult right now, but I have faith in you. You are the same smart woman who has two BS degress and you will get through this. You will get properly medicated, you'll find a T who can help you, you will absorb the love of your parents, and you will move on with your life. Maybe grad school isn't right for you and maybe it is, but you can sort that out after you feel better.
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thread:357813
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