Posted by Racer on June 16, 2004, at 12:26:10
In reply to Racer? » Racer, posted by antigua on June 15, 2004, at 13:22:24
Thank you. Since you've told us how you've been for the last few weeks, it must have struck you very deeply for you to be able to cut through your own misery to post that to me. At the risk of sounding like a real 'psychobabbler' (as opposed to the Good Dr-Bob Babbler we have here), it sounds as if it's cut a tunnel through your own despair and allowed you to engage with something outside your own depression. While I'm sorry it's about something so negative, I'm glad that it gives you a chance to recognize that there are ways to tunnel into the light again.
I hope you can hold onto that if the darkness comes back again. Someone very much wiser than I posted something over on the 2000 board about conditions under which she will not allow for suicide to be an option. My brain won't let me figure out what she said, but basically it came down to this: if there is any evidence that the situation is not permanent, if there is any evidence that improvement is possible, then suicide is NOT an acceptable option. Can you put up a sign for yourself saying, "When I was feeling the worst, I was still able to reach out to offer comfort to Racer. That shows that I am a very good, caring person, and can effectively provide support to someone who needs it." That's more than a lot of "normal" people can do, you know. That doesn't put you one up on the non-depressives of the world, by the way. It puts you head and shoulders above them all.
You, Antigua, deserve all the oxygen you consume and more. Take even deeper breaths, and take the best serving of that meal. No one deserves it more than you do. You are capable of more than most of the "normals" of the world. BECAUSE you can do what they can, even with the Depression Beast dragging you down by your ankles. I hope you can hold on to that.
And I read your post on Psychology. I'm so glad that you had such good sessions. I'm sending you wishes for more of the same for a while. And I'm hoping you'll stay here and continue to help me by caring. Thank you.
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