Posted by ghost on June 15, 2004, at 9:16:42
In reply to Can anyone remind me what the point is?, posted by liligoth on June 15, 2004, at 2:53:44
when you figure it out, will you let me know?
i haven't figured out the point. it all really does seem pointless. i've decided that the point is to learn to have fun, because it's what's keeping me going right now. why do i bother job hunting, if it's only going to make me pay bills? only to work more when i generate more bills, etc., etc. endless cycle of working and paying bills... the only thing even remotely interesting is having fun, buying toys (i'm a gadget junkie), and i'd like to start dabbling with art again. i'd like to make my own darkroom. so right now that's my goal.
i think maybe you have to find something small that you like just for the sake of liking (no other reason!) and trudge forward for that. but once you get there, you have to find something else. something else to keep you moving forward.
i guess that sounds dumb. even something like an art room is superficial and pointless on the whole, but it's little stuff that keeps me going (or keeps me from going), so it's what i have to concentrate on.
it's not that i don't think about just giving up on an almost daily basis. but those thoughts don't trigger me to try to act on them as much. maybe it's the meds (and you WILL find something that works, you just have to keep trying). maybe it's that i've accepted the fact that life is pointless anyway, and you have to make your own point. who knows?
just my two cents.
i know how you feel, is the short version of that. i don't know what the point is. maybe there isn't one. but there's a bunch of us out there wandering the planet just as aimlessly. maybe we should form a big, pointless cult. :)
(((((liligoth)))))
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