Posted by partlycloudy on June 12, 2004, at 9:36:24
I went on a cleaning clutter binge this morning. Absolutely rabid in my pursuit of simplicity and streamlining my belongings. I already chucked out about half my stuff after my divorce several years ago, and that was extremely liberating. This time I found *5* different journals I have started writing over the years and then stopped.
The point of this thread... I was really agitated by the process this morning. I chased my husband out of the house to go on a bike ride so I could concentrate. By the time I was done, my hands were shaking horribly. I would have given ANYTHING for something to bring me down: xanax, a drink (yes, it is 10:30am where I am!), a smoke.
Instead I put on a CD and started surfing. I have an enormous collection of natural sound cd's, combination music and nature sounds, Benedictine chants, music in languages I don't understand (Portugese, Spanish, Gaelic), music with singing with no words.
About 10 minutes into it, I am serene. The music has created a lovely cloud on which I have floated above my anxiety and agitation. I have never responded so completely to music, and this is a gift for me. It's created an oasis of peace in my mind - which is really where all the clutter is, isn't it? - and I am so grateful that I can see and hear and taste. This life we have is such a precious thing.
I just had to share, goofy as it may be. Thank g*d for Babble.
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