Posted by ceesea on May 27, 2004, at 23:00:07
In reply to Re: desperate, posted by tterees on May 27, 2004, at 22:41:21
i know he loves me, or he would not be here, but he is getting sick because of me.
and the cats, well one of them would miss me yes, but the other one is brain damaged, he loves everyone and everything and probably doesn't recognise me when i come back in from hanging the washing out.
i think of them
i think of my mum and stepdad who are hurting because i am sad and they can't fix it
i know it's wrong but depression, misery, is irrational i'm sure you know that
i need relief from this mess, or at least something to hope for/about.........a treatment idea, a reason for my not reacting to drugs and therapy, i don't know
sometimes i think i'm not sick at all, i'm just a horrible person
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