Posted by spoc on May 25, 2004, at 8:48:14
In reply to it's not fair!!!!, posted by karen_kay on May 21, 2004, at 21:15:32
> ...just one small favor, so i won't worry anymore :) pretty please with a [insert fruit, i usually prefer cherry] on top!
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<<<<<< Ok, so it rolled sideways! That happens with round things! Guess we'll need more whip cream to hold it upright next time! I KNOW you're never short on whipped cream (although for some reason you're often short on the nitrous that's also supposed to be in the can...), so what's the deal with giving me so little this time? Trying to make me beg for it again??KK, I find myself somewhat devoid of personality today -- not in an ungood mood or anything, that I can detect so far (sometimes it's hard to be sure, when you don't have to go anywhere or have other humans around!), but I just haven't channeled Jerry Seinfeld or Bill Maher yet today (did I mention yet that I went out with Bill years ago?... Should I?? I hereby renounce any troublesome aspects...). However, I was making a quick pass through here after a successful stint at reducing my online time, and was touched to see myself mentioned in a couple threads I almost missed.
Now I can answer the question, how do I know I exist? Previously my only answer was that, if I do say so myself, cars do swerve to miss me when I jaywalk. (Yes, I jaywalk sometimes, I lead a life of derring-do, take it or leave it.) But I still kinda doubt they would if they knew me better. The drivers, that is -- I for one don't really believe the cars could figure me out, unless Christine is still out there and knows where I live. Tee hee, SHE was onto me, I must admit.
Another thing I was smoked out to say, even in my current nakedness (back off, I only mean stripped of personality), is that I too went for a journey to the center of the archives yet <<again>> right around when you did! Right when I had vowed to disconnect more frequently, I rediscovered those archeological digs, my first love here. So I wanted to tell you, I feel exactly the same way about all the missing people I never knew. I see so much passion and color in the archives (and willingness to stand up for principles, seeing that as a good or normal thing). Sometimes I think the best window of fit for me had opened and closed before I ever got here... Sometimes I feel like bumping some of those threads but nah, I'm sure many like things better as they are now, to each his own...
And another thing, I hate to tell you this KK but natch, I saw you many times in the archives, and must say that while you obviously Had It from the start, you have indeed really blossomed young lady, and your true spirit has come to shine. I also saw some of your thoughts at the time on newbieness, and that was comforting... You brought to mind one aspect that hadn't been posited by, or to, my own recent (and regretted/subsequently-put-in-perspective) lamenting... (Sorry, that thought was probably impossible to follow, partially by design...)
And I saw that indeed you too were once insecure enough to play it safe and trouble yourself with capitalization and punctuation. (I kinda think your funny posts are even funnier now for the lack of it -- kinda like the written version of delivering a joke with a dead-pan expression/tone so that one doesn't see it coming... But if you see me do the same someday don't flatter yourself, it will only mean I am getting lazy...)
But maybe the BIGGEST thing I was smoked out to do here today was clear up any misconceptions I may have created about my ankles...I think I meant to do that back in another thread when you demonstrated a failure to acknowledge the situational nature of any cankle tendencies I may have... That this is a condition known as edema which occasionally sets upon me from too many Internet hours spent in a non-ergonomically correct chair; most definitely not a condition of birth. Rest assured that if I ever do marry you, all manner of undesirable things may lie in wait for you but cankles will not be one of them...
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> ...obviously i've done absolutely nothing today, but be on babble and archive, archive ARCHIVE!!!---
<<<< Actually Karen, that was NOT obvious, we can tell when you're posting but not when you're in the archives. So don't worry too much about all those searches you did on the obsessive fear of unsightly panty lines and erotic preoccupation with shopping carts and Linda Blair (yes I can read between the lines... Including the panty ones but I try not to focus on those; we did agree to overlook each other's imperfections and just cheat on each other instead of complaining...)> ...could everyone just lie to me, for one short day and tell me that you are all so very happy right now? please, for my sake? i worry too much i think.... please lie for one day, in just this one thread and tell me you are soooo very very very happy, ok?
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<<<<< Maybe that was a limited-time-only request and I missed the boat already, but just in case, ok... I am here to tell you that I am "so very happy right now; so very very very happy." Actually I did get a hair more done IRL due to my recent 'net reduction (how sad that success for me will seem to have to come at the expense of being here much). However, when I disconnect I also do get increased clarity on the mess I have made of other things while I was hypnotized by the small screen in marathon stretches...Here's some cheery news for you though, should you still be reading this thread (you did already explain about that attention span...): If I ever do kinda pack up and leave here kinda for the most part, I promise I will at least email you! How's **THAT** for a picker-upper and reason to live??? And how are you, are you over the bittersweet hauntings and realizations yet, that gave birth to this thread? (Note that I have shoved you from here and there within recent memory, trying selflessly to furnish you with that venue for arguing and crying that you say you want; but I don't see any claw marks or bruises on me so I guess it was too subtle...)
Oh good grief, shut me up already. I haven't posted in days, so sue me. But I do hope yer perkin up ((dear))! :- D
-- spoctacle
-- spoctacular (above finalists courtesy of flb, thank you flb..)
-- [insert other possible new name here, retaining 'spoc' for recognition but now made cuddly, sassy and all-woman; and removing any unintentional implied Trekkiness... Lest I fade into a distant memory but re-emerge later... Perhaps once in therapy or on meds, and at last having something relevant to add/ask!...]
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