Posted by Tootercat on April 27, 2004, at 17:54:25
I need all of the positive energy possible for my papa. He is back in the hospital because of this weird disease called Wegener's Granulomatosis. It is winning right now...he is fighting really hard. He's in Florida and I'm in California and it's so hard because part of me wants to be back there (although my sister says he is not very lucid) and another wants to remember him the way he was when he visited last summer. Chicken s**t?
I could take off time from work now(I have vacation)but I'm hoping beyond hope that he will pull out again and I can go when he is at home again...
Sometimes being 3000 miles away is a blessing and a curse. I have avoided so much "family duty" by being so far away and yet I have also missed so much "family joy". I am so confused by my feelings around this whole thing. I am filled with sadness, guilt, anger, and fear. This sucks.
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thread:340710
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