Posted by kittycat on April 21, 2004, at 3:23:54
In reply to Re: married, posted by Magdalena on April 20, 2004, at 12:14:20
I struggled with the cyprimal for the first 4 or 5 weeks. Horrible side effects, constant nausea, dizziness, headaches, anxiety of note!! One of my problems is major anxiety problems, so that was pretty difficult. I also suffered with lethargy. I still struggle to get out of bed on weekends. All I want to do is sleep which is quite frustrating for my boyfriend. I am really hoping that will pass because it feels like such a waste sleeping my weekends away. I am carrying quite a lot of weight so I really need to get some exercise, but I just don't seem to have the energy. I'm hoping that will increase as well.
The embarrasment about drinking is probably just paranoia. You're absolutely right, everyone else was also pretty tanked, but I always feel guilt and anxiety about losing complete control of my tongue and getting a bit wobbly on my feet.
My own insecurities playing with my mind again.
But the depression after a heavy night is too much for me to handle at this point in time. I've starting cooking and reading again. Which are things that I used to really love and just lost interest in. Doing those things make me feel good again which is a step in the right direction.
I will stay close to my friends, but only the ones that aren't into the drinking scene. I have a very good support structure and I wouldn't want to lose that, or shut my friends out.
I am having a pretty good day today, finally managed to get some sleep last night.I hope that you are feeling good today!
Thanks Mag.
> first off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! it seems its the season for birthdays i have a ton of them comming up. Do you mind me asking why you feel so embaressed about drinking too much at your birthday? did you do something tottaly out of character? i have mostly observed that in those cases its not as bad as you think, everyone else around you is just as intoxicated if not more than you are so events will seem vauge and fuzzy. I'd say dont worry too much about it, plus it was your birthday you are allowed to kick back and relax. I have dont some tottaly embaressing things while drunk but i just said well next time i am going to NOT drink as much cause the worst things i ever do while drunk is like pass out in the girls washroom then have bouncers from the club have to carry me outside and find who i belong to...lol...that was bad, but i survived, that was my 20th b-day i think too. haha. we all do dumb things once in a while we are human its ok, dont worry people are too busy worrying about themselves to alalyze what you were doing.
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> I think it is a good idea to rediscover yourself again, as i am doing that very thing myself, my friend just let me borrow her paints cause in highschool i loved to paint, and play my guitar and go hiking andgo dancing ( i havent done that since summer). so it is good to do those things, but it is also good to keep those you love close too, you dont have to go drinking, maybe go see a movie? or sit together and watch a fav. show? whatever it is you like to do but sometimes its just as good with a friend.
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> Good luck to you, i myslelf am still battaling getting used to this medication, all i want to do is sleep all day and its pretty unmotavating.
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> keep in touch and let us know about your progress!!
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> Mag
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