Posted by rainyday on March 22, 2004, at 15:28:00
My mom has been getting heart stress tests done because of possible (probable) congestive heart failure. She lives in Toronto and I am in Florida. I am tied in knots over being there for her. My brothers, who live locally, NEVER get the full story from her because she "doesn't want to upset them." She goes back for a consult with her GP on Friday and I want so desperately to be a fly on the wall.
My anxiety is understandable - a daughter worried about her mom's health. But the symptoms are so out of whack. I feel like I'm in a life-or-death situation. I know it's my panic setting in. None of the relaxing techniques are kicking in. I breath slow and deep, I forget to breathe, I feel my heart lurch in my chest, I check my blood pressure (normal! at least part of me is!!), and I know it is out of control.
How can I stop my racing mind? How can I speak with my brothers without getting hysterical (like I know I would)? I would really like one of them to go to the consult on Friday, but I get all weepy just thinking of picking up the phone.
rainyday
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