Posted by almondjoy on March 19, 2004, at 15:53:43
hey all,
i mostly lurk/have posted a couple times, but mostly close the window instead of submitting. i could really use some perspective though,i'm kinda confused about mental illness any my relationship
my boyfriend and i have been togethr for about a year and a half, and just moved in together with his 4 year old this past december. i'm diagnosed bpd and depression, and he's known since the start about my hospitalizations and all.
the problem is he doesn't know and doesn't want to know anything about my diagnoses. at first my feelings were hurt, i want him to understand why i act out sometimes and am so moody. and i think its ridiculous that he says he can't ever tell im sick anyway. sometimes i don't eat or sleep and cry for hours. unlike when we were dating he sees it all, i can't just tell him i'll see him tomorrow. it makes me feel like he thinks im lying or faking though
i dont know whether to think my feelings are out of place bcos it doesn't matter as long as he supports me or maybe im overthinking the whole thing. but maybe the whole issue could turn into a big deal after time.
i tried to talk to him about looking at some info yesterday, to just find out that his ex wife was on medication just before they split up and he felt powerless over the situation (her change in behavior and sex drive). grrr...HER again! if that's what the whole thing boils down to...
anyway...i can deal with my dad's denial, and bs that i should just stay busy and motivated, his walk-it-off attitude; but if my guy started that, i would fall apart.am i making a big deal out of nothing ???
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