Posted by Magdalena on March 18, 2004, at 0:30:52
In reply to Magdalena, posted by jlynne on March 17, 2004, at 21:03:52
Hi Jlynne,
i was really anxious before work today, kinda like 'anticipation anxiety' but once i started working i felt ok. I think that not running from the stressful/anxiety provoking situation is starting to help me a bit.No i was not offended by your pot question, yes i have smoked pot but in the last year i can count the times on one of my hands because its not so pleasant anymore (my current boyfriend smokes it, but he knows ihave no desire)when i was 14 though i used to smoke it a lot, 2 or 3 times a day. i stoped a few years after because it occationaly causes paranoia in me. I have also experimented with a few other illegal drugs although not excessivly, but have quit all that when i was 19. I felt that the synthetic happiness i got out of those drugs only made my depression worse by comparison. I didnt want to hurt my body with those things anymore i wanted to be happy in my natural conciousness, its been my quest eversince. I did overcome a lot of my depression that way but the anxiety makes it stick around.
i am seeing a therapist in 3 weeks for the first time ever, and i hope the experience will be a positive one. I feel good knowing that i am taking the right steps towards my goal(im sure its all our goals), and that is to be free from anxiety/depression and the limitations and concequenses that it brings.
about those jersey sheets THAT defenatly sounds like something i will be looking out for the next time i brave the mall, bedtime is my favorite part of the day! :)
anyway hope you have a good sleep, im turning in now too..( i read before bed)
Sweetdreams
Magdalena
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