Posted by socialdeviantjeff on March 17, 2004, at 17:41:14
Well, I went to my pdoc. I was right at first. I would pretty much be admitted if I only actually was in the proccess of trying to committ suicide. Since ideation and intent are two different things, I'm not suicidal enough to warrant admission. I did SI last night, the worst yet. My upper right arm is a gory essay in shallow cuts. yes, I have it bandaged and I'm taking care of it.
Plus, there are no programs available until I have Medicare (years out and I can't get Medicaid) or turn out certifiably homeless (then I can get Medicaid). These are the state rules. Utah sucks big time.
So, while I'm waiting for SSDI I guess I'll try not to kill myself and try to make money that I can't make.
My pdoc also FINALLY gave a definitive diagnosis. Borderline Disorder. I suspected it, in a way it's good to finally have an angle of attack to work on. It's tough and it'll take a long time, but I wanna beat this b*tch of a disease.
As always, I thank all of you for your support and kindness. You guys rule.
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