Posted by shar on March 14, 2004, at 16:27:12
In reply to Thanks, Guys, posted by Susan J on March 14, 2004, at 11:51:34
Susan,
As your response (and the responses of others) suggest, suicidal thoughts IMO have a lot to do with feeling helpless about how life is going and having an out if the pain is too great.I don't mean helpless as in weak. I mean feeling the inability to control the input or stimuli or (when we were little) getting hurt. My suicidal ideation is pretty much related to being hurt, and treated badly at a time in my life where I truly could not control the outcome. I remember wishing I was dead when I was pre-school.
Alternately, suicide and those related thoughts gave me hope in a way, knowing I could 'get out' if things were too bad. Like an escape pod or safety hatch.
The previous advice is as much as I could offer. It might be a good idea, if you trust your T, to have a visit or two. And, changing whatever you can in your life to make things feel better (regardless of whether or not it makes OTHERS feel better) could help, too.
Best of luck,
Shar
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